Suddenly don't know who I am; don't know what I want?

I was always completely ambitious, determined & passionate about my blossoming career. I'm a singer, and I recently auditioned for a competition in my state that is like American Idol. I made the first round of 30 finalists, and I was ecstatic. I have many things coming up, like a movie audition, and a record label contract that has yet to be signed once I complete my demo. Then, on Monday, I went to New York for a photoshoot. When it was done, I found myself quite upset & about to have an anxiety attack. I usually love the city, but I felt so smothered in it, and like I didn't belong. I was born in the country, and I suddenly felt a compulsion to be back there rather than where I was. I felt like I didn't want to sing anymore, or do this anymore. It was all very strange. I thought the feeling would pass, but it hasn't. I feel like I don't know who I am right now, or what I want.

Answer:
you need to go to the church u need find on you heart what do you want!
its hard to say but is there anything else? is there any other choice? if you dont want to make music, by all means dont. people wont understand but you will and thats what matters, that you understand.


or maybe make music on how you dont wanna make music but its all you got and have a mandilin and crap in the background. and stuff. maybe you need a meaningful relationship
That is COMPLETELY normal. Basically, you went from being a hometown kid in the country to a BIG BOOMING CITY where everyone wants something from you.

You are in a difficult spot because IF you mess this up you may NEVER get another chance, but you need to make sure this IS WHAT YOU WANT!!

Ask yourself....
1) why do you want it??
a) is it for attention
b) is it something someone else wants you to do
c) is it in your bones..you just want and you always have?

2) What can you gain from this experience?
3) Are you just scared? Because that is perfectly okay.

My suggestion is to do this...forget everything else and just pretend that you are home in your garage messin' around w/ friends...like you use to. Then when you have some free time....STOP and think...figure out WHY you want this.

Also, know that alot of us THINK we know what we want until we actually get it and then we think..what the heck was I thinking?? I am SO NOT a big city person or the lawyer type or whatever.

As far as the feeling "passing"..its not gonna pass right away..you have to find a way to work around it.

Good luck
That sounds like anxiety about the large changes in your life that you may be heading for. It's certainly normal to be anxious about that, and the more drastic the change the more anxiety you can expect.

I would encourage you not to give up your dreams and ambitions because of a fear of change. You know you really want this, and it's not going to be easy but nothing worth doing is. Recognize your fear for what it is, face it, overcome it, and move forward.

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