Why do i have to feel this way T-T this feeling in my chest, this horrible depression.?

i don't know what to do, my life i so not what i wanted it to be, i know this is the case with most people but why do i feel like this, my parent's are so oppressive and controlling which don't make things much better they want me to be this trophy and i can never live up to their expectations i'm a constant dissapointment to them, i'm never good enough for them, i find myself thinking of sucide more often then ever before, why? sometimes i wonder if anybody would even miss me, i'm in college at the moment learning for a career that i don't even wan't i wan't to drop out or change courses but i don't know what i want, i just wish i could do something that would matter that would make my life have meaning, i want to make a difference so that if i die i'll know the i was of some importance to this world and somebody within it, i don't know what's should i do i feel so lost and helpless, what do i do? to make this pain go away, should i just do myself in? please i need to know what to do.

Answer:
I will care if you hurt yourself!! I suffer from depression but I learned how to control it I know it will never go away.Have you talked to a psychologist or even your parents what are saying on here.maybe you should move out have more freedom. You can e-mail me if you feel like this again.
i know how you feel. I have that empty feeling my chest too. Every beat of my heart is like against its own will. Its hard to live. Im still in HS and i hate it so much. I have anxiety and sometimes i feel like im ready to give up. But your parents love you and care about you. And even though we dont know each other, in a way I care about you too. I dont want you to commit suicide, fellow human :). DONT. If you feel like you dont want to be in college why not make a change? Its your life, do what you like, your parents will still love you. Go work somewhere, or take a vacation. Life isnt about school. Gluck and hold on!!
Wow. Only you can control the way your feeling and it will not go away until you pus it away. I felt like this at more than one point of my life, and i understand what you are going through. It snot easy to deal with this problema dn you need people to talk too, if you are misserable wiht your current studies then you should change to a coarse that make you feel alive, surround yourself with people that understand you and really try to make the feeling go away. suicide is a very stupid thing to do because it will not prove anything to anyone. suicide is the cowardly way of going and facing problems, you cant think would people miss me.of coarse people would miss you but they would remember you as the person who commited suicide. i think that the best thing you can do is get help or talk to people about what you are feeling.

You should not feel the need to impress your parents because no matter what your desicison is they have to understand that you cant be who they want you to be. you are your own person and you should start thinking for yourself, dont let other influence you into doing what you dont want. express your deppression in other ways such as painting or poetry, but never once think that you are not important to anyone, becuase even if you dont accomplish anything in life you will have touched more people than you know. you are important to everyone who loves you.if you need to talk to anyone. please feel free to email me. i would be more than happy to talk.

carlos
It's not about living for your parents or others. Don't see yourself as a pet, your a family member and you owe more to yourself than that. If you really want your life to have meaning then no better time to start then right now. All it takes is the want and the gumption to stick it through. The first place to make a difference is yourself. Let this be the first and most important for all others will stem from this foundation you will build. How can you help anyone if you can't help yourself...right...now your getting it. Second, decide these things with love, anger and contempt only crumble away the mortar that love makes. Always be true to yourself and you will continue to make a difference and contribute to this world in ways you could never imagine. Disappointment is a true fact of life and we all experience it from time to time, so no offense but what is so special about your parents that you should be the one always disappointed that you disappointed them. Are you seeing the pattern here. Parents try to guide in the ways they know how, now that doesn't always work because of one little detail... they are not you and ultimately this is your life, your wins, your losses.
One day they will be gone and then it is you left with you and you'll be happier to see you if you love you enough to be strong, brave, and respectful of yourself down the road later in life. If you are in college then I highly suggest you kindly take the reigns to your future and get the feel of them. After all this is your carriage and who better to know how to stop,start it eh. It'll be a change for your parents but that's okay they can handle it. Oh, and you don't have to have all the answers now.
Don't delve into ruin and crash your carriage, ease into the reigns and enjoy the ride, it is an expereince of your lifetime.

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