Can you interpret my bad dream?

My ex was a real jerk, he treated women disrespectfully and cheated on me and lied about it for years before I knew. He verbally abused me saying things indicating he thought I was stupid and belittling me. We are divorced now and I am so glad, several times I have had the dream that he tries to rape me, which totally grosses me out to even think about. In the last few months we were "together" he would threaten me if I didn't consentially have sex with him, I wouldn't even face him during the act because it made me feel terrible knowing he cheated on me and all. So now I have the dream that he is forcefully raping me or trying to rape me, sometimes he doesn't succeed, the last dream I was able to run to the door in time to yell out to ppl to help me! Why do you think I dream this, he's out of my life now. This dream is horrifying to me, and NO I don't have any secret desires, please be serious here!

Answer:
It seems that you still haven't gotten over the humiliation and abuse to which this man subjected you.

It may take you several years before you can relegate these traumatic thoughts to the background of your consciousness.

There is no need to attempt to suppress these thoughts. They will remain with you for the rest of your life. Just try to realize that by being aware that these thoughts are presented to your consciousness by a bruised ego, and can thus be relegated to the background of your awareness.

Think of sitting at the beach and watching the waves constantly pounding the beach and slowly eroding it away. But, find comfort in the notion that you can sit peacefully a few yards away from that angry surf and still be unaffected by its fury.

Put yourself on the beach and watch those negative thoughts from a distance. Those thoughts remain intact but their fury is not directed toward you. They can become only footnotes to a rich and diverse life, not the center of an obsessive turmoil.
it's possible that you keep getting away from him in the dreams because your dreams are telling you that you are free away from this man. i know they suck and you don't like having them, but i think they are showing you that you were strong enough to get away unlike so many other women, you are free to move on with your life. i am sure they will fade over time. good luck with your new future. and if you are still concerned on the meaning your local book store will have a dream book you can pull key elements of your dreams out of and kind of peice them together.
it could just be your subconcious fears surfacing. you said the rrelationship was bad and eventually all the frustration and such must release itself. in this case it seems to be in form of these bad dreams you are having. your mind is trying to "heal" itself and is working out all these problems that you have had. since he is already out of your life you can relax during the day and not worry about what is coming next. that could explain why you are dreaming about all this right now. if the nightmares continue or if you start to notice that they have that much of an effect on your day then you might want to consider getting some help. but otherwise, don't try to analyze it too much. see it as your minds way of trying to heal itself.
Generally dreams are where the mind is working out issues, telling a picture-story, with whatever images it finds handy, with no regard for normal logic in the selection of those imanges. Two possibilities ... a) is there some other "pressure" in your life, that you are not seeing? This dream could be substituting the known images. b) you have not truly gotten past the trauma... in which case some professional counseling would be a really good idea (check your work EAP pgm). I've seen cases where the 'victimhood', unresolved, begins to manifest itself in other walks of life -- not a good thing! (and there is NOTHING wrong with asking for some help.)

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