Wat the Fu** do i do now?!?!?

i used to b a heavy heavy heavy cutter and burner! iight yea i havent done this in like id say a year and guess what? my world came shattering down at 5 am this morning and i cut myself yea in one year havent done anything till now and this guy , nathan i really really care about him and i put him through the most painfull inhumane thing ever he watched me slit my arm open.he doesnt even wanna talk to me now wat the fu** am i supposed to do now?!?!?

Answer:
Hey, it's okay. First off, great job on making it so long without cutting. People that have never been there won't understand how hard it can be to keep from it. Next thing, I want you to understand that just because you slipped a little bit and this happened, it doesn't mean it has to happen again. It was one time, and now you're through it, so it's time now to look at how you're going to keep from doing this to yourself in the future when things get tough. Find a therapist, consellor, psychiatrist, or whoever to help determine why you feel the need self-injure. They can show you different ways to help you manage the overwhelming emotions.

As far as your friend goes, give him a day or so to sort out what he's thinking. He's most likely scared and confused at what he saw and hurt that he wasn't able to help you. Call him up in a few days and say what you need to say to him. Apologize, explain, whatever. Just don't let any guilt over this one incident determine how the rest of this friendship will go on forever.

For the record, I'm not a psychologist or anything of the sort. I'm recovering from an ED, so I've had lots of recent experience in trying to patch up my own shredded relationships. It's hard, but try to stay positive.
Wow, you're really screwy.
yikes... i can relate, believe it or not. first and foremost, if you need stitches, go get those now. i have way too many unsightly scars to tell you otherwise... as for nathan... explain that you were stressed and this isn't something that you normally do and haven't done it in a long time and that you're going to go talk to someone about it so that you can stop doing it again... if you did it in front of him as a way of reaching out for help, be honest with him. let him know that you trust him enough to share this side of yourself with him, even though you regret it and tell him that you won't let it happen again... and mean it. good luck.
It may be time to face the demons if you haven't already. Deal with the pain that you're tyring to release when you're cutting/burning so that it doesn't happen again.

If he's a good guy you could explain that some really crazy things have happened in your life that you need to deal with, that you're sorry and that you're going to deal with them and you'd like his help. If he walks away, get better on your own so you don't have to loose anyone else, including yourself.
First get some bandages and stop the bleeding. Now repeat after me.that was really dumb... again.that was really dumb.. Okay now that thats over.....
It's a form of attention seeking. I don't mean that in a rude way, but if you don't get any attention for doing good things you are more likely to seek attention by doing bad things, or in your case harming yourself. When we don't get enough attention sometimes we can feel like there is no point in our existance, because life would go on pretty much the same without us. A feeling of worthlesness brings about all kinds of depression and can surface in different ways, such as anorexia or self harm. It's a way of feeling some kind of controll over your life so you know you are at least existing. You could really do with some professional help as compulsions like this are not easy to get over alone.
I'll tell you what the Fu** you should do now and that's take control of your life and get help NOW. Do you REALLY blame your boyfriend for not wanting anything to do with you?!! Grow UP. At least you recognize what you put him through, now think about your family and everyone who cares about you. Get up off your butt, blow your nose, go to emergency. You need physical, mental and medical attention not tomarrow, next week or next month - NOW!

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