Cutters/ Self-Mutilators: What was your reason for cutting the very FIRST time you did it?
I know why we sometimes choose to continue - the addiction, but I want to know why you initially decided to do so? What made you do it?
I will give best answer to the person who gives the most honest answer. I want to be able to delve inside the psyche of a self-mutilator. I am not giving it to someone who most accurately describes my reason for starting, but to someone who can truly and honestly tell me their original reason for starting.because sometimes the answer to our problem lies in what motivated us in the first place. Thanks.
Former Cutter.
Answer:
I started when I was really depressed...my parents would yell at me and punish me (usually by slapping me) for things that I had control or not over, even things I didn't do (sometimes they still do). Plus, my friend was always ignoring me, but then apparently I still had to be her best friend and couldn't go off with my other friends, one who enjoyed talking about me and stealing lines of poems I wrote...and my brother was clinically depressed, and he always was screaming and breaking things and tearing up the house. I haven't done it for almost a month now :]
I just want it to be made clear that I dont do this anymore, It was a really unhealthy thing I did when i was younger. When I was 13, my mom decided to move to another state. I had a boyfriend I thought I was in love with and had close friends and I thought if I killed myself it would be better than leaving my entire family, friends and boyfriend. Of course I didnt kill myself but I noticed that cutting myself was such a release and I wasnt angry anymore.
i used to do it soooo much. i've met others and their scars dont compare to how many i have...
i first started doing it cuz me and my former girlfriend started going through a lot of shiit that i created. i messed up a lot of things with her and hurt her in so many ways that she did not deserve to be hurt in. and i just couldnt handle the fact that i had done that someone i loved so much...its hard to live with yourself when you know that in one weak moment you fcuked up the greatest thing you ever had in your life.its still hard to live myself because of this
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