What happens when you don't know yourself anymore?

What happens when you know longer recognize or know yourself? When there really isn't anything you won't try or do at least once, when you're constantly changing moods/opinions/ideas/perspecti... on things. I don't know who "me" is anymore. I do what I'm told in life, for the most part. I abide my rules/policies at work/school and try my best at everything, but when I don't have structure or rules to go by I do whatever I want/whenever I want. I don't have any morals it seems. Don't get me wrong, i don't do REALLY over the top things, but I definitly do things, that say, I wouldn't have done 2 years ago, as far as drugs/sex/and lieing goes. I engage in a lot more risky behavior, and I'm not scared/don't think twice/ I'm almost numb about it. I just don't care, I guess you could say. It scares me though, thinking about all the stupid things I have done, and honestly, I have no idea why I did them in the first place. What is going on with me? Where did I lose myself? Thanks.

Answer:
go to a therapist, talk to your parents. Find yourself, in a good way.
well drugs are sure to make you lose yourself and numb you to life. so first on your to do list is to stop drinking and doing drugs even if u dont do it that often. after that, everything will fall into place and you will be better aquainted with you. you'll probably lose some friends once the real you resurfaces
You are 'numb' for some reason. You are denying something. You do know yourself - this is why you are able to ask the question. You are perhaps seeking attention to alleviate the pain/trauma/upset you are denying. Find someone you can trust and confide in them.
maybe at times you are thinking of yourself as having two personalities -- the good abiding one and the other, let's just call it the aggressive one. when you are not sure who you are, you may need to seek professional help for therapeutic treatment, talk to your parents if possible, or talk to someone older and can give you an independent opinion. Spend time alone too and write things out, what makes you the "aggressive" one, which personality makes you happy and at the same time give you a clean conscience. I suggest you visit www.jehovahwitness.org. for articles which can help you. Keep praying!
My heart opened when I read your question. You asked, "whats wrong with me?". I say that there's nothing wrong with you. God created you with purpose. With breath. Life. Though you may feel like you have lost your breath and life, remember that God draws near to us when our hearts are laid bare before Him. Maybe ask God to shead away the layers that cover you. Some things take time. But know this: that God never gives up on us. The only way we can lose is if we give up on our pursuit of Him. Don't give up. Keep asking questions. Communicate with the Maker. Read the Word. He is your Lover longing for your return. And He always takes us back.
Best to you. God loves you so much.
Denise
If you're with your friends when you do things, you regret later, welcome, to the club!

If your by yourself, talk to your doctor!

Your concern about your behavior shows you want to do better.

If your really worried, write down what you want and who you want to be. Read it every day and dont worry about the small things.

No one is perfect!
It honestly sounds like you have everything you think would make your life complete. MAYBE you're bored. I'd say now its time to start thinking about others. You have POSSIBLY, up until now, lived irresponsibly, selfishly, and frivolously. Taking, taking, taking and not giving to anyone else. Find out what it is that you believe in and take a stand with it.

OR, maybe its just that you don't feel worthy. Do you love yourself? Do you respect yourself? Many things can make us feel unworthy in life. Unworthy of love, happiness, and respect.

OR, maybe its that you are finally being the person you were always meant to be and have ill feelings toward the lie you were living. MAYBE your excessive new life is a way to say "up yours" to those who live differently than what the new you is like. Who knows? At least you care enough to try and confront what you feel may be a problem. If you are isolating yourself, endangering yourself or others, I say be aware of the necessity to be careful with your own personal safety and others. You may not want to burn bridges. Life doesn't get any longer so you should enjoy yourself.

OR, maybe you're just young and have been sheltered while doing what you were told for so long and now you are setting yourself free to become the man/woman you want to be. Discovery is amazing, just do it safely :D

I guess it all just depends on your age. Do you have a family or are you just beginning your adult life? Some people feel "safe" being a follower and maybe that's who you are. Everyone can't be a leader. At least care enough to take charge of your own happiness.
I think you might just be feeling a bit despondant or hopeless. When you stop caring about things and taking risks for no reason- it's kinda self-destructive. You could really hurt yourself or those around you, even if you are 'numb' to it.

Have you thought about counseling? Do you have anyone to talk to? Don't give up on yourself. Your life is worth living. You are worth it. You need to love yourself more and try hard to get your life back on track. Get away from the things that can destroy you.

~Hugs~

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